Last night was a bad night. After work and picking up the kids, I went over to Mum’s house. I was upset and over-whelmed. I want answers and am not getting anything. A friend from work, who has been through this told me today that I need to let go of expectations. There are lots of things that he “should” do, but I have no control over anything except what I expect. So I should just learn to expect nothing.
I was so upset that when we had packed up and put the kids in the car, Mum said that she thought they should stay with her for the night. So that’s what we did. I feel so bad that I am not level headed enough to look after all the time right now.
Tonight, Andrew picked up the kids from Mum’s house for his first weekend with them. I have spent the afternoon cleaning up the kids rooms and folding laundry. And also taking out all of his clothes from the closet and dresser. I am trying to look at positives right now and am going to be happy for the extra space and the fact that I will be able to organize my things exactly how I want them.
I am just about to head out the door to meet Siobhan for sushi and then maybe pop into Tina’s place. I have to dedicate at least 4 hours to school this week so I can get caught up and maybe even a bit ahead until I have some free time again.
1 comments:
It's ok to be pissed and it's ok to be upset. Lean on your mom, she's a wonderful woman who loves you and will help.
And YES! Focus on the positives. You can have all the closets! You can stretch out in the bed... And you don't have to worry and wonder all the time now.
You WILL be ok. In fact, you'll be great!!
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